THE NOW

silence

as the wasps burn through my brain

my body pulsates

what is happening what is trembling what is this feeling that i can't pin down

this shimmering of parts of my body i did not know existed

i steady my leg

i steady my heart

and all fades into the darkness

spins and whirlygigs through the meadows of life

the moment is now

the past forgotten

the future irrelevant

the fourth dimension collapses

and we are caught up in the flames

light comes back with a wallop

and my pupils can't adjust

blindness sweet glorious blindess

it is everything

the now is everything

i have no need for time

your body is all of my dimensions

it takes control of me

then as the flames begin to consume

as the light becomes too much to bear

the darkness returns

the doubt

the longing

all rush back into this life

time basks once again in the sun

stretched into oblivion

it eats away at joy

at my redemption

it pulls us back into this three dimensional world of heartbreak and reality

we are separated before your flame can burn me

and now solitude

the ever creeping darkness

finds me

consumes me

becomes once again the only now i know