what is that creature
lurking around the corner?
does it have a face
a name
a life it lived before now?
she shrieks her cry into the rainy dusk
leaves scratches on my back
underwear on my floor
and a revelation in my mind
a spiraling vortex leads me away from sanity into a world where we become one
a world where the owl and the mouse are caught up in their perpetual game
inescapable
i have discovered what you are
you are the loss of reason
the deconstruction of plans
that force which wishes to derail me
push me into a different life
you are the path changer
and so i flee into the arms of something else
routine
normalcy
a past life
and i try hard not to look back
but the cities of the plains call my name
plead their case
scream it to the wind
their cry is effective
my shell cracks
my morality sloughs away
wet jeans after a summer storm
and i am bare
i race back to that corner where i met you
where i hope to see
your face
your beauty
everything that i have built up in my head that i know can't be wrong
i move as a pillar of salt
but when i reach that place
when i turn to see you there
when i finally open my eyes
the nest is empty
you have taken flight
it could have been joy
we
we could have been ecstasy
but i misled my emotions into faulty decision making
i mismanaged the one facet of my life i thought i had tied down
i was awash in confusion
lost in retribution
and stuck at that one point in time
but was it the end
had i finally found solitude enticing
or was it just a missed opportunity
one door that closes as a thousand more swing wide
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